an9.41:10.1 Then I thought,
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an9.41:10.2 ‘Why don’t I, with the giving up of pleasure and pain, and the disappearance of former happiness and sadness, enter and remain in the fourth absorption, without pleasure or pain, with pure equanimity and mindfulness?’
an9.41:10.3 But my mind did not leap forth, gain confidence, settle down, and become decided in being without pleasure and pain. I didn’t see it as peaceful.
an9.41:10.4 Then I thought,
an9.41:10.5 ‘What is the cause, what is the reason why my mind does not leap forth, gain confidence, settle down, and become decided in being without pleasure and pain? Why don’t I see it as peaceful?’
an9.41:10.6 Then I thought,
an9.41:10.7 ‘I haven’t seen the drawbacks of bliss with equanimity, and so I haven’t cultivated that. I haven’t realized the benefits of being without pleasure and pain, and so I haven’t developed that.
an9.41:10.8 That’s why my mind does not leap forth, gain confidence, settle down, and become decided in being without pleasure and pain. And it’s why I don’t see it as peaceful.’
an9.41:10.9 Then I thought,
an9.41:10.10 ‘Suppose that, seeing the drawbacks of bliss with equanimity, I were to cultivate that. And suppose that, realizing the benefits of being without pleasure and pain, I were to develop that. It’s possible that my mind would leap forth, gain confidence, settle down, and become decided in being without pleasure and pain. And I would see it as peaceful.’
an9.41:10.11 And so, after some time, I saw the drawbacks of bliss with equanimity and cultivated that, and I realized the benefits of being without pleasure and pain and developed that.
an9.41:10.12 Then my mind did leap forth, gain confidence, settle down, and become decided in being without pleasure and pain. I saw it as peaceful.
an9.41:10.13 And so, giving up pleasure and pain … I entered and remained in the fourth absorption.
an9.41:10.14 While I was in that meditation, perception and focus accompanied by bliss with equanimity beset me, and that was an affliction for me.
an9.41:10.15 Suppose a happy person were to experience pain; that would be an affliction for them.
an9.41:10.16 In the same way, when perception and focus accompanied by bliss with equanimity beset me, that was an affliction for me.